I don’t know

What am I supposed to do when i don’t have any hope left, when my whole world is ruining in front of my very eyes? What’s gonna happend next? What should I do whan the lack of any breath of life in me is hurts so much, so much that i feel dead. Dead from the world, apart from any human compasion. When everything and everyone is turning it’s back on me, leaving me no hope, how am i supossed to act? Why do we need to know these things? Why don’t i know the answer of any of these questions? Will i ever know it? What it hurts so much that even the breeze of spring can’t wipe the dried tears on my face, and the fact that I will never be able to turn back the time and change things, make them the way they should have been… And i hate so much that i’m not able to change myself, to change anything in me.  Si-am mai murit un pic azi…